must have been very good
For more snipped poetry, read Sticky from Seven Yrs Later. See all Post-its here.
must have been very good
the picture of me and my mom
and my dad
forcibly point
to their best
an overly high pain tolerance
as big things do.
eventually
we work thru it
new identities
a way to go in
blaming the people
fighting telling understanding
I will pay for as much as my pay will let me.
I’m asking you
do you want to sling it back?
it’s possible
that I forgive you
for me and for us
doesn’t mean my emotions and thoughts were
wholly imagined blanks
like hot chocolate
gestures drip
today impelled me to burst.
she dealt with it pretty well
just in my room or whatever
must have been very good at coping.
must have been very good at acting.
Cut from Notes to Self:
“I want them to understand me. I haven’t let them.”
“I am your kid, but I’m also an adult and a person.”
“And maybe that is what holds things together, that undercurrent, that small but steady drip”
“She said I must have been very good at coping. I said I must have been very good at acting.”