"I get him to a level, and he gets me too, and this means I have room to be myself"

Nov. 28, 2014 | Benrik. “DAY 184.” This Book Will Change Your Life.

Notes to Self are longer journal entries from Seven Yrs Ago. I was 21 late 2014.

WHAT I LIKE ABOUT RELATIONSHIP yah

• He’s a good cook

• He still tries very hard to make me cum

• He’s very smart (it’s true!)

• He absorbs a lot of info and spits it out/shares it with me (sometimes a con, but also +)

• He has a cute face (given)

• He has good taste in music and is much more up on trends/new stuff than I am

• He generally has a better sense of what’s going on in the world than I do bc he is an instant feed. Which is generally useful.

• He knows what feminism is!! (← sorta has to practice more, but if I stand up more and say something (which I should do anyway) think he’d get it).

• He makes me laugh. ← actually pretty important I think. Often strange and unexpected. I think I underestimate his sense of humor (too much?)

• He thinks I’m pretty which is a base-level checkmark that doesn’t even need a parenthesis to be implied but yeah, it counts for something

• Based on Sylvie thing, I don’t think he’ll cheat on me – watch that doubt creepin’ in

WAIT! Why aren’t the next ones at the top of my list?

• Besides music, he has good taste in books and films and will slightly geek over them with me

• He’s good at sex. Which is always a plus. Duh.

• He hasn’t done anything that wrong…

• I like him.

I’ve known him for years. I get him to a level, and he gets me too, and this means I have room to be myself and grow into whatever self I want to be.

As long as I still value Tanner as a person and let him know how I care, and hopefully let that grow as well, I have a good chance at having a good relationship with a good guy, even if our time is limited. It’ll be fine. Just talk to him. If you want an emotional connection, put in some emotions first and see what happens.

For commentary seven years later, go here.