New Reasons

New Reasons

Notes to Self

Long-form journal entries posted in full. Between Seven Yrs Ago and Seven Yrs Later.

"So here's what it is: at the risk of sounding needy, I'm asking you if you want to be friends with me."

"So here's what it is: at the risk of sounding needy, I'm asking you if you want to be friends with me."

11/25/13.

Nicole RapatanNovember 25, 2020notes to self, sevenyrsago, needy, neediness, exes, friendship

"The times I felt the worst about the relationship was when I had no idea how he felt about me or what to label it"

"The times I felt the worst about the relationship was when I had no idea how he felt about me or what to label it"

11/18/13.

Nicole RapatanNovember 18, 2020notes to self, sevenyrsago, relationships, dating, college, hooking up, ambiguity, ambiguous

"Anyway, so the vase is smashed again. I smashed it."

"Anyway, so the vase is smashed again. I smashed it."

11/17/13.

Nicole RapatanNovember 17, 2020notes to self, vase, sevenyrsago

"I’m concerned that if I leave and start looking from the outside in, that I will not want to come back."

"I’m concerned that if I leave and start looking from the outside in, that I will not want to come back."

11/9/13. This entry is included in Wicked.

Nicole RapatanNovember 9, 2020

"I want an old people love"

"I want an old people love"

11/3/13.

Nicole RapatanNovember 2, 2020sevenyrsago, notes to self

"There will be difficult things that you won't want to do, but you will do it because it is a step in the direction of where you want to go"

"There will be difficult things that you won't want to do, but you will do it because it is a step in the direction of where you want to go"

10/27/13.

Nicole RapatanOctober 27, 2020notes to self, architecture school, difficult things, sevenyrsago

"If you don’t learn to walk away from what you don’t want, how are you going to learn to run towards what you do want?"

"If you don’t learn to walk away from what you don’t want, how are you going to learn to run towards what you do want?"

10/25/13.

Nicole RapatanOctober 24, 2020notes to self, journaling, quit school, dropout, stop drowning

"Perhaps I've been ignoring all the forks and I should turn once."

"Perhaps I've been ignoring all the forks and I should turn once."

10/19/13. This entry is included in The Middle.

Nicole RapatanOctober 18, 2020

"Will hurt you for sure, but at same time, maybe that will help kill it for you"

"Will hurt you for sure, but at same time, maybe that will help kill it for you"

9/9/13. This entry is included in First Love and His Wife.

Nicole RapatanSeptember 7, 2020notes to self, sevenyrslater, sevenyrsago, first love

"You are yourself. You own yourself."

"You are yourself. You own yourself."

8/31/13. This entry is included in Hold in My Headlock.

Nicole RapatanAugust 29, 2020notes to self, sevenyrsago, sevenyrslater