New Reasons

New Reasons

Notes to Self

Long-form journal entries posted in full. Between Seven Yrs Ago and Seven Yrs Later.

"Occasionally I come across a book which I feel has been written for me and for me only."

"Occasionally I come across a book which I feel has been written for me and for me only."

5/25/14.

Nicole RapatanMay 25, 2021notes to self, books, wh auden

"I can count my great impacts (probably more appropriately worded 'influences') on people."

"I can count my great impacts (probably more appropriately worded 'influences') on people."

5/25/14.

Nicole RapatanMay 25, 2021notes to self, influences, people, positive shit, schools

"'If I can't dance, I don't want to be a part of your revolution.' —Emma Goldman"

"'If I can't dance, I don't want to be a part of your revolution.' —Emma Goldman"

5/16/14.

Nicole RapatanMay 16, 2021emma goldman, yearbook quotes, notes to self, high school

“My first act of free will shall be to believe in free will.”

“My first act of free will shall be to believe in free will.”

5/9/14. Excerpts from The Power of Habit, Pt. 3.

Nicole RapatanMay 9, 2021the power of habit, charles duhigg, habits, books, notes to self, sevenyrsago

"I kept using the words 'lazy, bad, dumb' to describe whatever I was doing. And I would exalt everyone else's work."

"I kept using the words 'lazy, bad, dumb' to describe whatever I was doing. And I would exalt everyone else's work."

5/2/14.

Nicole RapatanMay 2, 2021notes to self, architecture school, transition, depression, ego

"Or perhaps your lifestyle (creativity, enjoyment) should become your work... which leads me to my next suggestion"

"Or perhaps your lifestyle (creativity, enjoyment) should become your work... which leads me to my next suggestion"

4/29/14.

Nicole RapatanApril 29, 2021life goals, creativity, career, notes to self

"To develop a stronger persona might feel inauthentic, like learning to 'play a role,' but if one cannot perform a social role, then one will suffer."

"To develop a stronger persona might feel inauthentic, like learning to 'play a role,' but if one cannot perform a social role, then one will suffer."

4/20/14.

Nicole RapatanApril 20, 2021notes to self, persona, wiki, narcissism, jung, egocentrism, superiority complex, enantiodromia, psych

"Willpower isn't just a skill. It's a muscle"

"Willpower isn't just a skill. It's a muscle"

4/16/14. Excerpts from The Power of Habit, Pt. 2.

Nicole RapatanApril 16, 2021notes to self, habits, the power of habit

"'love poetry to myself from the perspective of others that I fantasize them having'"

"'love poetry to myself from the perspective of others that I fantasize them having'"

4/13/14.

Nicole RapatanApril 14, 2021poetry, poem, bad poetry lol, notes to self

"I just met and had a conversation, directions giving with Dave Gruber Allen OHMYGOD"

"I just met and had a conversation, directions giving with Dave Gruber Allen OHMYGOD"

4/6/14.

Nicole RapatanApril 6, 2021notes to self, dave gruber allen, freaks and geeks, freaks & geeks, mr. rosso, celebrity sightings, frappuccinos

"The Habit Loop"

"The Habit Loop"

4/1/14. Excerpts from The Power of Habit, Pt. 1.

Nicole RapatanApril 1, 2021notes to self, habits, the power of habit, charles duhigg, habit forming

"Got 1000s of pictures before getting noticed"

"Got 1000s of pictures before getting noticed"

3/31/14.

Nicole RapatanMarch 31, 2021notes to self, hony, humans of new york, brandon stanton

"in between phalluses"

"in between phalluses"

3/31/14.

Nicole RapatanMarch 31, 2021notes to self, writing, wordplay

"hug when someone's arms are slightly spread apart."

"hug when someone's arms are slightly spread apart."

3/19/14.

Nicole RapatanMarch 19, 2021notes to self, live more, die less, depression, let's get it

"Here's What You're Going To Do (Gameplan)"

"Here's What You're Going To Do (Gameplan)"

3/19/14.

Nicole RapatanMarch 19, 2021notes to self, boyshit, first love

"And if it should happen, I want my children to be prepared for it."

"And if it should happen, I want my children to be prepared for it."

3/1/14.

Nicole RapatanMarch 1, 2021notes to self, divorce, parenting, future plans

"Race was the last thing on my mind."

"Race was the last thing on my mind."

2/28/14. This entry is included in American Asian.

Nicole RapatanFebruary 28, 2021notes to self, race, asian, filipino, filipinx

"Fast-paced frenetic genetics"

"Fast-paced frenetic genetics"

2/23/14.

Nicole RapatanFebruary 23, 2021notes to self, corny as hell lol

"(Oh god, how did I say that to my mom)"

"(Oh god, how did I say that to my mom)"

2/22/14.

Nicole RapatanFebruary 22, 2021depression, parents, suicidal thoughts

"What that actually is, I don’t know, but only you can figure it out."

"What that actually is, I don’t know, but only you can figure it out."

2/18/14.

Nicole RapatanFebruary 18, 2021boyshit, breakups, notes to self