depression — Notes to Self — Nicole Rapatan

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"I kept using the words 'lazy, bad, dumb' to describe whatever I was doing. And I would exalt everyone else's work."

"I kept using the words 'lazy, bad, dumb' to describe whatever I was doing. And I would exalt everyone else's work."

5/2/14.

Nicole RapatanMay 2, 2021notes to self, architecture school, transition, depression, ego

"hug when someone's arms are slightly spread apart."

"hug when someone's arms are slightly spread apart."

3/19/14.

Nicole RapatanMarch 19, 2021notes to self, live more, die less, depression, let's get it

"(Oh god, how did I say that to my mom)"

"(Oh god, how did I say that to my mom)"

2/22/14.

Nicole RapatanFebruary 22, 2021depression, parents, suicidal thoughts

"cute ways of telling people you're depressed"

"cute ways of telling people you're depressed"

2/1/14.

Nicole RapatanFebruary 1, 2021depression, cute, seamus gallagher, notes to self

"even if parts of it were terrible, I'm terribly grateful that they happened"

"even if parts of it were terrible, I'm terribly grateful that they happened"

1/26/14.

Nicole RapatanJanuary 26, 2021notes to self, depression, boyshit, getting over, architecture school

"This is a trajectory and your ending is nowhere in sight yet."

"This is a trajectory and your ending is nowhere in sight yet."

1/24/14.

Nicole RapatanJanuary 25, 2021notes to self, depression, therapy, optimism, college

“What would happen if you weren’t fucked up anymore?”

“What would happen if you weren’t fucked up anymore?”

1/3/14. This entry is included in Sticky, “conscious effort counts”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 3, 2021notes to self, depression, connection

“You will not perish emptyhanded.”

“You will not perish emptyhanded.”

12/29/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “conscious effort counts”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 3, 2021notes to self, depression

“She said I must have been very good at coping. I said I must have been very good at acting.”

“She said I must have been very good at coping. I said I must have been very good at acting.”

12/25/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “must have been very good”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 2, 2021notes to self, depression, coping, divorce, parents

“And maybe that is what holds things together, that undercurrent, that small but steady drip”

“And maybe that is what holds things together, that undercurrent, that small but steady drip”

12/23/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “must have been very good”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 2, 2021notes to self, depression, parents, divorce

“I am your kid, but I’m also an adult and a person.”

“I am your kid, but I’m also an adult and a person.”

12/21/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “must have been very good”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 2, 2021notes to self, dad, depression, parents

“The notebook can help me tap into that sadness one last time before I figure out how to be happy.”

“The notebook can help me tap into that sadness one last time before I figure out how to be happy.”

12/20/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “conscious effort counts”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 2, 2021notes to self, journaling, sadness, depression

“I want them to understand me. I haven’t let them.”

“I want them to understand me. I haven’t let them.”

12/19/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “must have been very good”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 2, 2021notes to self, depression, divorce, parents

“maybe it’s the conscious effort that counts”

“maybe it’s the conscious effort that counts”

12/19/13. This entry is included in Sticky, “conscious effort counts”

Nicole RapatanJanuary 2, 2021notes to self, depression

"Is life about not caring your way to the next level?"

"Is life about not caring your way to the next level?"

12/8/13.

Nicole RapatanDecember 8, 2020sevenyrsago, journaling, depression, apathy, mentalhealthmatters, mental health matters

"I'm crying for all the times I should have cried but didn't"

"I'm crying for all the times I should have cried but didn't"

12/5/13.

Nicole RapatanDecember 5, 2020sevenyrsago, journaling, crying, depression, mentalhealthmatters, mental health matters